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Here’s to Another Goddamn New Year.

It’s a little late to be writing a New Year’s post, but why do I have to answer to you? HUH!?! All unfounded anger aside I figured it’s a “better late than never” scenario. Although my resolutions are really all my own personal business I figured because one of them has implications directly affecting this here website I would list and/or describe them. Also, because this blog is not just a connection to you the reader, but a cataloging and journaling of my life it would be good for pure archival reference. I notice that in most of my blog I have to justify my reason for the post, like for whatever reason I am presenting this to the board of trustees and hoping for approval. That is just not the case, so I am going to work on that.*

2009 was pretty rad, but this post is not a reflection on the past, but a look forward into the future! (this would be the point you imagine hover cars and personal, hug-powered jet packs)

Resolutions for the year MMX (2010):

1. Write a Blog Post at Least Once a Week

The irony that that this is a late resolutions post and thus far I have failed miserably is not lost on me. The only excuse I can offer is that I have been in transition recently what with moving back down to school and having late registration of classes. Although, I am not much for the self-justifications, it has been fairly hectic. So, this resolution is in effect as of today, and for anybody that actually reads this, please get on me if I slack.

The reason behind this resolution is that I don’t take full advantage of this website. Beyond the monetary contribution I make every month to my web host there is numerous benefits to keeping a regular journal. A journal is a great way to look back to see what has transpired as we make our way through life. Not to mention to see how much of an idiot you were years prior (see any blogs of mine circa 2003).  Aside from cataloging this also improves my writing ability, something I believe is paramount if you ever get into a position where you need to interact with people via the written word. Even beyond the honing of skills, it is a great outlet. I often find that various points throughout life require a bit of organization to step through the events that have come about. Writing is fantastic for examining life and all it’s intricacies. One last reason why this is my number one resolution; it is a great connection to people you know such as family as well as people you have yet to know (or people you may never know). It is a window to yourself into which people are allowed to peer and gain a greater perspective on you. Due to the nature of blogs many opinions are discussed and a reader might widen their view on something do to the discussion that takes place within a post. Again, a window into the complexities of being human.

Remember, please, If I slack, get on me. I do not want to let this one slip.

2. Train for and Subsequently Run a Marathon

This is actually a failed resolution for 2009. I have no really good excuse for this. It was just a matter of other things taking priority. This cannot and will not happen in the new year. This goal represents more than just a conquering of the physical. I have not been a very physical person in life. Not that I have been super huge or lazy, but stagnation was the name of the game for most of high school. I turned over a new leaf right about the end of High School. This is kind of the culmination of all the years of change. By completing a marathon it’s kind of saying that, “Yes, I have changed and I have proof.” Even with that it is a mastery of the mental because for many years I have been one of those, “How can anyone run a marathon? It’s not for me.” Those are roadblocks I need to get past. I have adopted the can-do-anything mentality to life and I really am kind of peeved when I hear people spout excused because they are just that, excuses. Beyond mental and physical impossibilities, such as a missing limb or brain-damage, I truly believe one can do anything you put your mind to. This will be evidence to support my thesis.

3. Organize and Conqure (A tale of School and the Beyond)

Motivation has been a killer for me, but it’s not full out laziness, but more a scattering of unmotivated events. I am convinced that is less to do with my personality and almost everything due to my lack of organization and time management. My hypothesis is that if I manage my time properly and account for all my “stuff” going on I will eviscerate my motivational conundrum. So far I have attended a day class in time management and effective use of a planning system. I have seen a real change in how and when I get things done that I have not witnessed in the past. The main reason behind this push for regime is that I end up doing poorly or just ok at the close of each school semester. I am so starry-eyed at the beginning and by the end I am looking back and scratching my head as to what has happened. Upon closer inspection I think I keep too much stuff in memory. The problem is human memory is terrible. You will always be reminded at inopportune times, be it too early or too late. This is why I am trying to keep everything centrally located in a planner. If it’s out of my head and on paper it is no longer my responsibility to remember when things are due and I can keep my head focused on the now. As you can see a lot of this is school-centric and you’d be right. I hope these skills will carry over to other parts of my life (I can see they already have), but that leads me to my sub resolution

3a. All A’s for the Year

I have not received all A’s since I was probably in 5th grade. I know it is not intelligence based because I know that I am capable of achieving this it’s a matter purely on how much I apply myself. The satisfaction that would come from this would be almost unmeasurable. It would be a testament to the new organization system as well as quantitative proof of personal and professional growth. I have kind of been at odds with myself for a while because I believe that if one is going to put forth an effort it should be their best effort, and I just have not been doing that.

This one is kind of multifaceted, but perhaps the most important on the list. It is one that I plan to focus most of my attention on and hopefully will lead to the success of the others as well.

4. Be Comfortable With the Skin I’m In

This one is very open-ended and doesn’t really have a measurable end point. I just would like to be less self conscious and more self confident in everything I do. I think that when you focus on your faults and always worry about what the person next to you is thinking you end up enjoying yourself quite a bit less. Changing yourself to fit an undesired mold to please another is inevitably going to lead to problems and a lack of happiness. The best thing you can do is be honest withyourself and have fun! Who cares about the other person. Life is finite, that is an unchanging truth. Have a good time while you are here. Life’s a journey, start blazing your own path.

Those are the resolutions that I have come up with for the start of the new decade. Some are a little cliched and tired, but I hope that when 2011 comes rolling in that I will have grown and really come out the end regret-free. What are your resolutions? I would love to hear what you guys are doing to put your best self forward in 2010. Drop me a comment below!

*That was just and aside. I make no promises to improve upon this or anything else not cited in my resolutions.

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Personal Philosophy Video Games

On Gaming.

I’ve been getting into podcasts hard these past 6 months. I have been doing quite a bit of long distance driving recently and podcasts have been a savior during the boredom of I-65. One of the shows that brought me to this post was called “A Life Well Wasted.” It’s about video games, but almost tangentially. If any of you out there are NPR or This American Life fans it’s done in a style closely resembling that. It is more about stories people have about games or related to games and less about the games themselves. As the shows tagline says, “An Internet radio show about video games and the people who love them.” More an emphasis on the people.

The topic of one of the shows was “Why do you game?”. It seems like a harmless and easy enough question, but it’s really quite loaded. It’s hard to actually put into words why you like something. Example: “Why do you like Chocolate?” (provided you do). Aside from “‘Cuz it tastes good!” you really have to put some thought into it.

I was actually surprised at some of the answers. I guess I just never thought to step back and examine why other people indulge in this activity. To my dismay probably 3/4 of the answers given were about escaping reality and how it helps people forget about there own lives. That is not exactly the answer I was expecting. While this post is mostly about my own views on the topic I just thought that it was pretty alarming to hear that my fellow gaming brethren(and sistren) are enjoying one of my favorite pastimes purely as an alternative to alcohol.

Unless you game yourself the appeal is kind of hard to see. To me the closest cousin to games is books. While video games are primarily a visual medium (hell, video is right in it’s name) they have the ability to tell complex stories with morals and deep characterization. Also, like books, video games can be poor, audience-pleasing releases. I don’t want to debate it in this specific post, but I do consider video games, like books to be a form of art.

I have spent a good portion of my life playing them so I better have a pretty good reason for playing them! With that statement I begin my explanation of why I game. Gaming is myriad things to me. It’s been a starter and bonder of friendships, an exploration into human motions, a stress reliever, and a friend to lean on when you are having just the worst kind of day. While I don’t play video games as a form of escapism, I do enjoy the worlds they take you off to. Just like reading a fantastic novel, you often get whisked away to impossible places with a cast of characters you soon won’t forget. RPG’s are really fantastic about bringing emotion to the forefront of the game. People of my generation seem to be deeply impacted by Final Fantasy VII not because the gameplay was stellar (it wasn’t in hindsight), but by the story and characters. Who didn’t feel it when Aeris died? Video games have a way of making you feel apart of story like no other medium has done for me. You directly influence how the story plays out (to an extent).

Story is not the only driving factor to why I game though, as stated above. The social aspect of gaming has been around longer than the advent of large single player adventures. Competing whether on a team of by yourself is so gratifying. That one kill to win the match. The power up that jettisons you to victory. The overall feeling of dominating your opponent is fantastic. I could go on and on about multiplayer gaming, but instead of recounting memories to you I will simply say that it is one of the better ways to spend a night.

I know it might sound kind of pathetic, but gaming has been there like very few things have. Whenever I am stressed or just have a “case of the Mondays” I know that I can pop in Halo, Mario, Street Fighter, or Zelda and have a smile on my face. Some people have books, movies, or music, but If I had to pick one thing that has impacted my life in a significant way it would be gaming.

While I could talk about this topic for far longer than anyone cares to hear, that is why I game. If there is any gamers out there who are reading this, why do you game? I’d love to hear why. Just drop a comment.

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Projects Video Games

RGB Video Proyekt

For whatever reason when I was playing Panzer Dragoon Saga I just wondered if the Sega Saturn could produce anything crisper than S-Video. Little did I know I was opening up a can of worms I would not soon be closing. Upon researching I discovered that there was an output called RGB. It was never really brought to the states beyond old computers. The concept is that the Red, Green, and Blue. By separating all the different color channels the resultant picture is much crisper and vibrant. Well not only could I achieve this on the Sega Saturn, but many, many consoles before it. Almost all of them.

XRGB-3
XRGB-3

The first step was locating the necessary equipment to be able to display this on a US monitor or TV. Like I said, for whatever reason the US didn’t really get this technology. After about a week of straight research trying to find a cheap and relatively easy way to go about doing this I landed on an up-scan converter called the XRGB. It was a Japanese product which allowed RGB input and outputted to VGA. PERFECT. The problem was they were not exactly easy to come by because they were quite the niche product. The only one I could find was the third iteration of the product called the XRGB-3. Being newer and beefier it was somewhere in the vicinity of $400!! Luckily I did locate on eBay for a significantly reduced price. Thank goodness!

SCART
SCART

The next step was to buy all the RGB cables to go along with the systems. I am in that process currently and it is proving again to be a difficult one. Most cables you can buy today are RGB SCART. SCART is a European standard which differs from the Japanese 21-pin RGB. Physically they are identical, but the pin configurations are different. If you accidentally confuse them you might be in for a pretty big surprise as you will probably break your adapter or monitor. So I needed to locate an SCART to JPN 21-pin then the SCART RGB cables. Such a chore!

NES Mockup
NES Mockup

The really cool project in all this I am working on is the RGB NES. The NES cannot output RGB by default. There is two ways to get an RGB NES. One is to buy an NES Titler which was made by Sharp in 1989. They run quite high as they are pretty rare. The next is to acquire the PPU (Picture Processing Unit, kind of like an ancient graphics card) from the Playchoice-10. The Playchoice-10 was the NES Arcade unit. If you swap the Playchoice-10 PPU with the NES one and do a little solder and wiring magic you can get RGB out of the NES. Currently, I am in possession of the PPU and am planning out how I want to get the video out and everything. I am really close and should have it up and running in under a month I hope. On top of the RGB output I also want to do the “stereo” mod on the NES coupled with the extra chip input from Japanese cartridges which I have already done. It will be the ULTIMATE NES! I am excited. This whole RGB project is turning out to be a lot of fun. Stay tuned for more updates!